Just when I had this uber urge to blog a few days ago, Blogsome server died for a while. I couldn’t access my blog and the admin page. I got so nervous man. On one hand I thought, fuck!, I’m losing all my history and personality, my identity is gone!! On the other hand I thought, well, this may be a sign to get a new space and a new blog design.
So I lost all my train of thoughts.
I think I really want a new blog design cos I’m pretty bored with this one. I’ll pick a dark, sombre mood this time. Not this nice, pinky, sunshine mood.
These few days have been hard for me. I think I had a pretty rough year so far, and so far, it’s only February. That kinda sucks. Been coughing for 2 weeks, but slowly getting better. Things at work are… really bad. I won’t tell much here. But honest to God, nothing can be worst than what I’m facing right now. Think of the worst times you ever had in your working life, and multiply that by 83084237. Sometimes I wonder if it’s even worth hanging on. Maybe I should just give up and go away. What’s the point? I really don’t know. I’m unable to concentrate on anything else. I don’t even know who to trust anymore. For instance, other offices requested me for a simple information. In any other normal days before this, I’d obliged. I wouldn’t think twice . But these days, I have to ask first. It doesn’t really matter if I sound stupid.
The only thing that is keeping me sane right now is my Cibet. Cibet is my Pet Society pet. I wake up, I think about her. I login to Facebook just to play with her. I know it sounds really weird, but it’s true. Small little things like getting 500 coins, then gambling it away and getting really good unique items in Mystery Boxes and even having dirty and unhappy pets at the Cafe, makes me so happy. I am just drowned into the world of Pet Society.
When newspapers and TVs were announcing that times are bad, the economy is bad, this is going to be terrible crisis worse than 97, bla bla bla… I was like ya ya, it’s the end of the world, who cares? Boy was I naive. It didn’t strike me as to how bad the situation was, until a few friends of mine got retrenched, offices are closing down and the scariest part was, even my company was not spared and has fired a few. That hit me, like a huge fucking brick on my face. So it does affect me after all. So I’m not that invincible after all. So life really sucks after all, because of a few greedy asswipes.
That means, I have to be careful of spending, because you just won’t know what will happen. Seriously. One day you are happy you have a job, the next day your company will take it away just like that. I’m not afraid of being retrenched actually. I’m just afraid of being controlled how I live my life because of money, or the lack of it afterwards.
But what difference does it make anyway? Even now, I am already controlling my lifestyle because I know I need to be careful of spending. Just grocery shopping the other day, I’ve become somewhat like an ‘aunty’. I have started to compare prices, find the cheapest but still fulfill its duty. Like handwash soap for example, I’d usually go for the good looking brands with nice colourful bottled ones because that is just how I shop. An impulsive shopper, he said. That day, I went for a house brand, the cheapest. Gawd awful looking bottle and probably smell like apple even when it states it’s lemon. Between this and the branded one, the price difference was only less than a dollar. Still I went for the house brand because it was cheaper.
That said, I think my family doesn’t realize that the economic crisis is really bad. Because I came home today and I saw a brand new flat screen HDTV in our living room, my dad has a brand new phone, my brother has a brand new phone and my mum is planning for a holiday in either Bangkok or Hong Kong next month. Either that or they are filthy rich and pretending to be poor in front of me.
It is Lent season now. This I only know when it was announced on the radio. I told everyone "it’s Lent season now". They asked me, what is Lent? I said it’s when us Catholics would sacrifice doing our favourite things or eating our favourite food or basically just be sad all the way till Easter. I think it’s not very hard to do based on current circumstances. I’d have definitely booked a place in heaven.
I just watched Slumdog Millionaire yesterday. No wonder this movie is such a huge buzz right now. I fully agree it deserves the Oscar for Best Movie. It’s even better than that overhyped American Beauty. Just in case you are still wondering, it’s not a Bollywood movie. In fact, it has educated me a lot about the slums in India. Overall, it is actually a sad movie. But it will be a movie you will never ever forget after watching it. I’m not sure though, if the movie truly depicts the real situation in Mumbai and the slums, if it was exaggerated or made up. I should google more about it.
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